after that cortney & i laid on the floor being sort of silly, then we drank some gin & milk while watching mtv. but then we went to the beach, & everything was awfully sublime. just, i don't know. it was sort of like the way it used to be, just swimming out in the water & going down to touch the bottom so she wouldn't be frightened. then coming in & her laying in the sun while i threw rocks into the waves. just a lot of moment to moment good. i told her about how while i see an attraction in the flicker & douse, i am more about blotting the sun out. then we'd go back in the water. its difficult to capture, really. just really nice.
now i have to start putting the archives of my ohio life into order & start forming the seed of my new york life. if life is really the proper term for this subtle persisting me.