john conner, do you have stairs in your house?
kingtycoon said that he believes the reason for my hatred of speaking with faceless authority? is because i don't include myself in the set of "human." that if i thought of myself as a person, i could realize that they were just people too, & communicate with them on that level. maybe this is true, but i can't parse it, not really. this maybe is what fuels lonely desperation with me sometimes. i have to sleep, or i feel my organs functioning, & it just sets me off. this isn't how it is supposed to be. this isn't even how it appears to be.