last night i hung out with avatar_x & his girl kittenlid. there were a few brews had, which i sort of regret now, because i feel all gross. the unabashed heat of my apartment wasn't to kittenlid's liking, i can tell you that much. orie & i played some of the impossible contra: shattered soldier, & then there was some tetris going around, but we eventually settled on watching josie & the pussycats, one of my all time favorite movies. then later i got on the computer!
today i'm working on job applications. i hate applying for jobs. once i have a job, it isn't that hard for me to go to it. i just hate applying for them. hate hate hate. maybe it is the fact that i could be rejected by the sort of fuck off middle managers who are the worst part of occupational exsistance. maybe it is the concesion to reality before it becomes part of the calloused over routine of the mundane. i just need to start looking at things as more of a game. i mean, i can only improve my life by segments it appears. i've started going to the gym again. i havn't missed a class yet. those are me responding to my descision to get my act together. next i tackle the hurdle of employment, i guess. then after that all thats left is my hate for faceless & unearned authority.