I made an appointment with my doctor to talk about my sleep problems, & he couldn't see me for a week. Then I went ahead & filled in the pre-appointment survey, & he called me up & was like "this sounds sort of serious, I can slot you in today?" & so in I went. Talking about it, he pretty much agreed with my diagnosis about a sleep deprivation loop, though he did through in the wild card idea that maybe I have post-traumatic stress disorder from the surgery. & then I went "wow, I totally have all this crappy cultural baggage that says 'if you weren't like, tortured by the Red Skull for three years in a POW camp, then your PTSD diagnosis is crap' huh? That's not cool." Anyhow, the moral of the story is, he called in the heavy hitters & prescribed me valium. I've taken it two nights now & had similar experiences-- that is, I still wake up fairly frequently, but then if I get up to urinate or just roll over, I'm able to fall back asleep. No freaking out about being abandoned by angels or crickets living in the walls; panic attacks & vomiting haven't even been a factor, & that is such a massive relief that I'm really hoping that I'm actually breaking the loop, not just putting a bandaid on it with medication. Which, frankly, even if I was doing the latter, I'd be happy for it. That is an important step; my phyiscal therapist said she thought I seemed to be hitting a roadblock in regaining some mobility lately, & that lack of sleep could be interfering in my healing. I'm trying to Behave Rationally.
Gerd is in town! If you are a gamer, you know the bond you can share with someone that you have played in multiple campaigns with; we played in Mike's Oisos campaigns together, notably the epic level game, the Spelljammer campaign, & Scott's game, plus he was a key member of my first full Oubliette campaign. I gave him a hard time about how he gave the messiah-baby to an angel after we explicitly all agreed not to let anyone have the baby, & the angel kidnapped it; he reminded me that it was after he survived six attacks of opportunity from a marilith to grab the baby in the first place, & that his cleric in another game had made my orc monk a white cape that let him use the spell wind walk. Good times indeed. Last night he came over for board game night, & so did Alicia & Rasheem & Jess, & if you recall, Rasheem & Alicia were in David's Temple of Elemental evil campaign, so we talked about the star-crossed lovers of the elf thief & the human thief who never resolved their romantic tension, & of course about Rasheem killing Zuggtmoy with a natural 100 on a rod of wonder. We played Snake Oil first, which I dominated, I must admit, & then Cards Against Humanity second, which Alicia dominated. Plus, I put on Jamie Lee Curtis' stripping scene for Jess, because she was surprised to hear that she was super hot. Yes she is (I think Jenny has a resemblance, but don't tell her I said that, because she doesn't particularly like the comparison.)