July 18th, 2014

accio bow tie

At Least There is New Jenny Lewis.

At this point, the worst part about my hurt arm is that it has moved me into having insomnia. I've never slept well; I used to have chronic nightmare, then there's sleep apnea...I try to cover the spread, psychological & physiological. That improved drastically when I moved in with Jennifer, both because of comfort & her kicking me if I stop breathing. Things were going great until my arm made it impossible to sleep in any of my usual positions & started pinging with pain every few hours. Things are a lot better with the arm, but there is still plenty of pain, but even worse is that I have trained my circadian rhythms to basically give up & stop working. I don't mind so much that my body wants to go to bed at ten & wake up at six, I can be a curmudgeonly old dude, but now I just can't sleep. I have a pet peeve about people who brag about their lack of sleep (or how "busy" they are) but this sure isn't bragging. This isn't some hyper-adapted trait. I didn't stop needing sleep, I stopped getting it. Plus it comes complete with chronic nausea! Waking up in a panic & having to throw up is something from growing up that I didn't miss. Also you know, snarly & disassociated. A raw nerve who needs constant reassurance. It is unflattering. I trying things like "going back to bed after you wake up" or "try sleeping on the couch" or "what if you stay up late to reset the clock?" have been failures & I worry in some cases even counter-productive. The arm is improving though, I'm ahead of the program that the doctor gave my physical therapist. Oh & I haven't cut my hair in forever, because I need both hands to go against the warp & weft of my hair with the buzzers. So that's my medical update. In other news, fordmadoxfraud & Libby just arrived at my apartment for this weekend's July Shenanigans.
iron throne

No God, No King, No Country. (27; 9:18)

Froi of the Exiles by Melina Marchetta.

Tongue-twisters, word games
& well, etymology.
The little moments.

Ugh, as I got closer to the end of this book, I started to suspect the worst: despite being a doorstop, there wasn't going to be an ending. Lo & behold...there wasn't. So first things first; I liked this better than the first book, but not as much as what I'd say it's nearest comparison is, Bitterblue. "I heard you like sad in your sad?" This book is one big trigger warning; it is a story of rape survivors, & without wanting to sound cavalier about it, pretty much every major character has been raped, including the men. Consequences of war, of prison, & of...a curse that makes the whole country institutionalize the rape of young girls. So it is...pretty bleak! & also driven by the same tropes I dislike, like romantic tension fueled by over-the-top willful miscommunication & plot points "foreshadowed" by drowning them in dramatic irony. I like the book though; it overcomes those flaws. I mention them specifically because even though this is a bit of a brick, the book doesn't "break" in the middle on them. You know, the moment where the characters all go "ohhhh!" about the twist or the misunderstanding? For example, basically everyone is a secret twin, too? Or characters who have racial or gendered biases & need to get over them, those arcs are dragged out, too. Get it together! As I got closer & closer to the end I was like, "oh man, this is just going to be a cliff hanger." & it was. Which I'm grumbling about, not actually critical of; that's the author's choice, but now I'm left unresolved. The sales guy in me is okay with it though-- drive some customers to the conclusion while it is still in hardcover! What I like best about the series is the sense of history, out of the grasp of the characters. There is a world, they are just living in it. Things like religion, which might seem like set dressing to the non-religious characters, actually matter a great deal & have a pretty tight mythopoeic core. Also I like spooky weird female characters...so the fact that one finally gets to be the star of the next book makes it that much more appealing, after the last two.