friends, romans, countrymen, et al. yon cassius has a lean & hungry look, etc.
in metal gear solid: 2, the illuminati type group is the "rarirurero," which is basically like saying the "lmnop." which is not to dish on the lmnop, those guys are tough & all. i guess i'm just waxing nostalgic for the first metal gear, which is among the top five video games i have ever played, without exageration. solid snake is among the greatest spies ever, let me say. let me say, oh mr. chairman, let me say.
second off, you know who i hate? people ashamed of being geeks. people ashamed of liking dungeons & dragons. dnd is probably the greatest non-mobile hobby ever. i mean, even if you don't like fantasy, there is a roleplaying game somewhere that you would probably thing was awesome. plus, you know what? as david has pointed out, fuck these "if on a stormy night a traveler" pomo novels. a dnd sourcebook is a much more exploratory piece of fiction. how about TOTAL PARTICIPATORY fiction? hows that for genre revolutionary? well its been around for 30 years fucker!
(i am very, very self- centered)
its hard to explain. its one of those things that a sitcom would make a bigger deal out of then it is.
...the fuck? all of a sudden i started throwing up?
so, hunched over on the floor of the bathroom, watching my puke swirl in the toilet bowl as i flush it away? thats when i feel the most alive. thats what alive means to me. being a living thing repulses me. i could be charted up in an anatomy text book. i'm opposed to this exsistance. this isn't how its meant to be. i'm not supposed to be alone in my head. i'm supposed to have two more voices rattling in this think-box, & a rumbling horde filling in the backround tunes. i'm supposed to be recieving hivemind radio, living in plural. but i'm not. i read the chandogya upanishad just to keep from losing my mind. laying on the white tile & blue bathmat, i think about the story of the bastard son the brahmin says has not strayed from the truth. hinduism is the religion most like the pixies. fuck this. it feels like my life. & i hate my life above all.
man, i don't really think of david as my boss anymore, right? i mostly think of him as my friend who tells me what to do at work or whatever. but he's totally an awesome boss. his two concerns when i called in to tell him i was fucking sick? were whether i was feeling okay & whether i'd be screwed financially if i called in sick. which i did. i'm going to be "sick" today. which i am. hopefully this will also give me the opportunity to write my osteology final paper. because, i mean, as unstressful as that is, i still have to do it. to actually do the writing.
i do a lot of things because i love my girlfriend. on my own? i would probably just ignore all these things & do what feels good. i.e. play videogames until i forgot how screwed i am. & i mean, its not like i've been the most responsible ever this semester. but i've given it a fair shot. left to my own devices? i'd totally be in the middle of a self-destructive epidode to rival allah's creation of eblis. jenny means i'm not totally alone.
television you should be watching:
gilmore girls. i know what it sounds like, i know what its advertised as. i never would have seen it if jenny hadn't put it in. but its not what you think! it isn't some huge chick drama. its basically a vehicle for incredibly witty dialouge. i mean, i'm a joss whedon fan, which means i'm a sucker for a slang-ridden turn of phrase, right? the gilmore girls are up there with whedon! the show if freaking brilliant. 90% of the episodes, nothing happens. they just Talk. or as an add once famously said about the show, it is "charmingly chatterlicious."
that wb american superstar show. okay, turning american idol on its head, thats a funny enough premise. it couldn't carry a show though, right? like the littlest groom, a spoof show is basically good for two episodes. this show WILL float though. mostly on account of the judges. vitamin c has the best, most subtle sense of humor ever. vitamin c, vitamin c. i wish she lived in my apartment building. i would lend her a cup of sugar. i think the show will be funny mostly because the people in it are funny- they can bouy up a premise.
bands you should be listening to:
rilo kiley. if you havn't heard them, you should go out of your way to.
bands you should listen to that i thought sucked once upon a time:
guided by voices. okay, it isn't that i thought they sucked so much as i didn't get it. i mean, i liked "my valuable hunting knife" SO MUCH, but i thought the rest of their stuff blew. since then, i've given them a solid listen, & they are much better than i thought. still hit or miss though. being a huge alchoholic makes you pretty hit or miss, though, yeah? (these are the guys i am listening to RIGHT NOW!!)
the beach boys. i blame work. "pet sounds" is fucking great.