May 4th, 2004


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did you know that great white sharks bear their eggs internally, & hatch their young live? while an embryo is developing inside its mother, it will cannibalistically devour the other, unfertilized eggs. does this sound like my life? oh you better believe it: these anxieties writhing in my stomach are all teeth & cartilage. as if this influenza i've been fighting off wasn't trouble enough. now i've got to be a corpse for maggots of doubt to infest.

i havn't seen much of my girlfriend for the past few weeks & last night we slept in seperate rooms. i'm not confusing cause & effect- the distance has to do with all the visitors we've been having & now is complicated by my contagion. i'm all for blood-letting & leechcraft if it gets me a chance to be with her instead of spending time in my broke down carnival skull. i guess i should just shut up about feeling so lonely.
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the undertaker's mistress.

i'm dating a gangster's moll, her with her new & fashionable red hair. i've been saying all along she's got a conversation candy heart sewn inside her. she came home today to find a pair of bodies stuffed into the bathtub. "you murdered the landlord & the superintendent!" she accused me. "naw," said i, "they committed suicide." "how did they commit suicide when they've been shot in the back of the head?" she asked. "they committed suicide when they fucked with mordicai schadenfreude!" i shouted at her. she told me i was going to hell, so i drew my pistol & told her to save me a place before i shot her in the forehead.
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