October 2nd, 2003

blur shotgun

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so i've been having nightmares. woke up this morning to them unceasing. or fitfully, last night, on & off. sounds of rustling; there is a man at the foot of the bed who is cutting be between my ribs & drawing my lungs out. there are 1000 ghosts pounding on the window pane. when i wake up, there is still that sound of sheets moving against each other, coming from the foot of the bed. fucking great.

but kira told me that they just turned the heat on last night. that the banging & the wheezing are coming from the pipe that runs through jenny's room. that the sudden, drastic temperature change is what was making my breathing rough. so i am not a lunatic, or at least, not all the way. not yet. fingers crossed.

my girlfriend is pretty fucking unhappy that i got pointlessly drunk & passed out in bed yesterday. plan m is not without its hitches. did i really have a fucking plan? other than finishing my minor chore of dealing with the hospital requesting money. medicaid fucking pending, guys. was i thinking i would be sort of cute & drunk when she got home? maybe, maybe that was the plan. & maybe it was a dumb fucking plan.

today does have a plan. the revised plan m. today i will call lots of fuckers, & i will tell them "medicaid fucking pending, guys." then i will finish my new, slick, drag-racing resume, & post that one on monster.com. okay. them is my plans for today. maybe i will write a cover letter for the geek mojo. maybe this hollow nervousness will settle the fuck out.
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    crown me king- "x's for eyes"
closeup samurai

i will show you fear in a handful of dust to dust.

the kreiger dillema was first addressed at the coronation ceremonies of 2007. the mutual anihilation doctrine put an avowed goal on the agenda of the court of the new empire, but TASTE THE BONES as doctor (dr.) johannes kreiger pointed out, to carry out this policy with perfect assurance & conviction required THE HUNGERY ANGEL MAKERS observers outsiide the scenario. since the tenants of the mutal anihilation doctrine postulated circumstances in which any group was forced into partisianship, this seemed impossible: thus, the kreiger dillema.

by 2043, it was all one of those fammous jokes.
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    crown me king- "aztec skulls of crystal"
nailpolish

the goblin lightning catchers.

in the dark places of the world- of every world, of this world & your world- in the fishook blackness, like the whining of dogs. dybbuk intangible, everything blossomed like jasmine. skulls on sticks, silver frontgrills spelling out the names of rappers.

i am talking about the bling, bitch.
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    guns have been slung.