January 10th, 2003

closeup samurai

evenings in crates like peaches being shipped.

the winter ended up getting to jenny today, leaving her feeling depressed & awful. the day started out lazy- it was her day off, so we were maybe just going to spend the morning watching television & lying on the floor together. that was going well, until eventually things just turned into her discontent. we took a bath together, bringing candles & the dvd player into the bathroom, setting up a nice little fortress, washing each other's backs. &, like all my baths with jenny, the water was cold- this is funny when you think back to last winter, in her apartment with no heat, & us taking baths while we boiled water, pouring the boiling water in, just to keep warm. anyhow, everything seemed good in the tub, which made things weird when she was still depressed when she got out. see, i am able to be heroic for her when she is this way, but for the first little bit, i get weird too. it isn't about me, but i just have to let that sink in, you know? but then i get good. we ended up enacting scenes of minor villiany, & after i accidentally channeled bill cosby's ghost, i did funny accents that made her laugh so hard that kira & donna heard in the next room.

though, fuck. she started crying & one point & was all "i thought you liked it when girls cry." & i do, but only when i make them do it. & not so much her. which led to me treating it poorly. i mean, i didn't even get the kissing of her tears away on. what was that all about, that was awful. she was apologising for being that way, & told me to go to see the fit with illscientist if i wanted. which is silly, because what i want is to be with her.

when she woke me up this morning to say bye, i was having a nightmare, & the look on my face was probably priceless. so, debs has a cd for me, if i am willing to come into the city again to get it from her. i have time to think about it, since she works for a while & not till later. oh; also, we looked at pictures from once upon a time. some of them are awfully silly.
  • Current Music
    guided by voices- "my valuable hunting knife"

the ballad of the dueling honey bees.

"as painful as this may be for you," the government agent said to her, "you need to remember what's at stake." in the closet, she saw him licking the blood of his fingers.

dwarves, who live in a state of perpetual war with the goblins (though it is low level at most times, & tends not to prevent trade), rarely war with other dwarves. thus, conflicts between dwarves tends to be personal if it occurs, & this leads to the traditional greeting being the clasping of forearms, in order to verify that there are no weapons hidden in the other's sleave. human merchants, despite the xenophobic nature of dwarves (or perhaps because of it) took to this greeting, though it has since evolved into what is recognizable as shaking hands.

the people of blaine, who live & mine around the lake formed in the crater from the rock that fell from the sky, are renown for their weapons & above all the quality of their armor. their salute consists of hitting the spot above their heart with the right hand, which derives from the original soldiers of blaine assuring those around them they they were girded for battle.

the elves salute is done by a slighting bowing of the head as the elf kisses the first knuckle of the half-closed fist of their sword-arm. the more formal version of this salute is done by the elf holding their naked blade in their hands & kissing the pommel, though this more elaborate version is only used during ceramonial occasions.

(see, no one goes in for the full plate & vision impairing helm look, so the hand to brow salute never came into exsistance. players, however, may very likely encounter people they might wish to salute or greet, & if a handshake or salute in inapropriate, the suspension of disbelief is jeapordized. so yes, i'm adding funny details, but only so that the world is presented as one with depth, instead of something superficial.)

still coming, coinage & economy. for instance, the vellic confederacy will have both taxes & tithe. the players, being likely to wander, will not have to pay tax (at least, not annually) but will have to pay tithe; tax, you see, is to a city-state, but tithe is to the theocracy that governs them. thus, people will neccisarily have papers, in order to prove their payment, enter cities without hassle from guards, etc. also, the dec-something will be the gold piece equivlent, with the -something being the silver piece, & the actual currency unit. i'm debating over how much trouble i should make it to use currency in other lands. i have a feeling that the coinage from blaine & elven coin will be exceptable nearly anywhere, because both are backed up with pretty strong standards, mithral & blaine's metal. though i don't really know much about economics- i should watch the wizard of oz again.

i'm also having issues with trade routes- in large part because i don't know what people would be trading, on a practical level. so i'm going to get kingtycoon's help with that. if i owned the game civilization i would be able to get some help from that. i can do the easy things; i know fabric of quality comes from alade (& especially from the elves that live there) as do spices, honey & candles come from the goblins, as do matches & mushrooms. dwarves trade in the predictable dwarven goods, so thats pretty easily taken care of. sion is big in the market of trading tutors (to sharn-hu, specifically) & in perishable crops & fish. sharn-hu is probably in furs. but i get stumped easily- i need a list of things likely to be traded, so i can just sort of assign them. it isn't like my trade routes are going to be under intense scrutiny by players desperate to play level 15 merchants.
  • Current Music
    crown me king & car crash -"lemon bomb <3"
cigarette burns

brak at AA. (aka nightmares when awake? OK!)

(shut up so maybe i finished the tequila)
if you want to know the truth, all of the closets in this apartment are connnected, & lead to the crawl space between the living room & jenny's room. anything could be living in there, but it isn't just anything that lives there. its something fairly specific. jenny says the living room & her room share a wall, but knocking to determine this sounds so far away. but that isn't the issue this morning. but the door is closed & its easier to talk about closed doors than anything else.

but i can listen to the bathtub filling up with water & maybe i'll just go in there to hide. oh but it isn't like i turned on the water. oh it isn't like any of this is the truth. the sword of damocles is an electrical appliance. oh it isn't like that, i assure you. oh it isn't oh it isn't. oh i want my mtv. oh it isn't my wits. oh it isn't, oh it isn't.
  • Current Music
    the magnetic fields- "how fucking romantic"