mordicai caeli (mordicai) wrote,
mordicai caeli

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& Mordicai said "I'm going to kill them all with my hammer, like I killed my parents."

I just don't get the point, I guess? Of going to bed. I mean-- I'm really spoiled, I know that, I get that. Sometimes funny to remember what an enemy of mine sleep is, & how hopelessly melo-romantic I am. I say melo-romantic; it is better than saying melo-dramatic, & more accurate, I guess. Seriously though, the normalizing & stabilizing presence of Jenny is kind of my important adaptation. I'm not a disaster without her; like I've learned lessons? I'm an evolver. I'm your huckleberry, Darwin. That doesn't mean I have to like it! Fine tonight, behaviorally. Took a lunch break of wandering around Metropolis with Tom talking about Oubliette. I went to the gym, put in a nice bit of work there. Came home, showered & finished the book I was reading. That ought to have put the nail in the coffin of the evening. Yet well, here we are. Not too late-- I'm not going to whirlpool whippoorwill in some self-destructive trajectory. Like I said, I am the guy on Titan sucking down hydrogen & acetylene. I'm just, you know, looking around & thinking about how superior the average take-it-for-granted is than the rest. Disobedient brain & rebel bones. Instead I occupy myself with word play. I'm on fire! Let me tell you about 19XX & Metagrammaton, both of which (c) Mordicai like yesterday is on fire. So what am I saying? Besides-- well, seriously? This is a thing I've found out? Or remembered I guess I should say. When I'm lying in the dark trying to fall asleep, I lift my arms straight out & shake my fists at the heavens. That is how I roll. & now I should try to roll into the grave. I mean, grave's end. I mean, that is a real place? Is it? It all seems really gauzy. Like I could reach my fingers out & tear right through it. See, basically the only thing keeping me from sitting in the dark just chortling & grinning ear to ear with knives for teeth & fingers is that I really, really like my wife. So I am going to go listen to "The Origin of Love" to take a break from the Jenny Lewis for a second. Can you handle that?

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