mordicai caeli (mordicai) wrote,
mordicai caeli

  • Mood:
jenny predicted that i'll get mad at her before too long, for with-holding affection. which is totally in character, true, but she's got a lot of slack since i am being super-boyfriend (forever), & because i was totally a dick to her. i mean, how is getting mad at her going to help me? if i get frustrated, i'll just channel it into, i don't know, arranging a symphony in her honor, or building a gingerbread house or something like that. anyhow, i am way more likely to become depressed & self-pitying first, get my sulk on. first i get hurt, then i lash out! comon! abandonment complex, right? isn't the pattern clear by now? clear like the waters of crater lake. but no! crisis-less. ho ho, i am jolly as old st. (saint) mordicai. i will woo, i will charm, i will wait patiently for her to want me. i just want her to want me like a cheap trick. man i miss her. i'm like a cosmonaut stranded in orbit. bring me home mother russia, bring me home pravda.

  • Post a new comment


    default userpic

    Your reply will be screened

    Your IP address will be recorded 

    When you submit the form an invisible reCAPTCHA check will be performed.
    You must follow the Privacy Policy and Google Terms of use.